How does our human-perceived-self differ from how we appear through the lens of AI systems especially as women?
The short film MEGATRASHWANNABEBIGSTARxD is based on a catalogue of questions from Ava Leandra Kleber on identity and the digital self, which were answered by an uncensored chatbot (LLM) trained on five years of Elisa Deutloff's private chats. It thereby conveys a perception of self (Elisa) intertwined with the perception of what she is through the lens of this LLM. Its core training happened with a dataset, which originated from internet-sourced data, including generalized expectations, stereotypes and sexualization. The chatbot revealed this origin through its sexualized answers because Elisa's original chats didn't contain any spicy content. 

The resulting interview was read by two synthetic voices: a voice clone of the early Paris Hilton, who deliberately used a constructed persona to protect herself by subversively appropriating stereotypes and the cliché of the dumb blonde, contrasted by one of a famous rapper, who uses a different type of constructed persona based on male-coded, performed masculinity. A conversation was cut from both readings, reflecting online experiences.

Video fragments were generated with common generative open-source tools, which reveal the narrow visual language and constant sexualization shaping digital spaces and are inscribed in and shown through AI as one shallow surface archetype—thin, white, young, sexy. They were assembled like non-linear short-form video content. Shifting between dialogue/chat, inner monologue, and music track, the sound connects the visual fragments like a stream of consciousness while scrolling on social media.
The film translates the feeling of a need to perform in contrast to advancing self-fragmentation: dissected and accessed by advancing technology and increasing demands in a vortex of information and disinformation and the paradox of watching the world's crises daily while the real world feels increasingly distant.

MEGATRASHWANNABEBIGSTARxD by Elisa Deutloff & Ava Leandra Kleber

Elisa Deutloff (1998, DE) studies at HfG Offenbach and works as a tutor in the electronic media department. Her practice revolves around sound, identity, surveillance, and media representation, often emerging from AI and sound research projects. Her work has been shown at Berlinale Forum, Frankfurter Kunstverein, Fundación Ludwig de Cuba, and MAK Frankfurt, among others. 
Ava Leandra Kleber (1997, DE) works at the Max Planck Institute for Empirical Aesthetics and explores how oppressive societal and systemic structures reveal themselves in everyday image culture and through technology. Her artistic practice is accompanied by research and activism on the impacts of AI. Her artworks have been shown at the Berlinale and MAK Frankfurt, among others.

MEGATRASHWANNABEBIGSTARxD is a sharp exploration of how identity, particularly female identity, is reshaped under the algorithmic pressure of AI systems. Drawing on five years of Deutloff’s private messages, a custom-trained chatbot stages a dialogue between the artist’s voice and its distorted reconstruction through biases embedded in LLMs, producing a self that feels both familiar and estranged. Rather than reflecting data, the chatbot amplifies sexualization and stereotypes beyond the original material. Through synthetic voices and rapidly shifting AI-generated imagery, Elisa Deutloff and Ava Leandra Kleber trace the rhythm of social media, collapsing inner monologue, external perception, and algorithmic output into a continuous stream, while exposing AI as a cultural mirror of collective bias.